Hi, and good evening.

I went to school today, i had an orientation, i masuk kelas 4 Amanah, with najwa and wani. Okay actually i just read my bestfriend's post on her blog, while listening to ' ombak rindu ' She told how her life was, how miserable her life was, i know if somebody read it, it didn't sound like that miserable, maybe other people will think it's just simple things and she just makes it complicated.

But who knows? Lagi berat bahu memikul. She feels like nobody understands her including her own family. She said only me who understands what she feels, okay bangga jap haha. Sometimes, when i was younger i always felt like nobody in my family  do understands me, i used to cry all night long when my mother with my step-father  fight and didn't talk to each other, i never told anybody but i cried when i see my mother cried because of my step-father, i once had hated my step-father and ask why did Allah take my father and my eldest brother away from me. My point is najwa, your family did understands you but in their own way, maybe your mother and father ways are too weird to show it.

Skrg kau rasa mcm mak kau langsung tak faham pasal relationship kau kan? I used to face this situation, how our own mother lose their belief in us, how my mother didn't want to talk to me after i kantoi dgn dia pasal relationship i. Then i didn't talk to her for about a week, i just sat in my room and i cried, i cried it's not because of i had to break up with my boyfriend, eventhough it's hard but i cried because my mom didn't believe me anymore. Then she text me and ask if i have anything to say, dia pun bgthu aku sama mcm mana mak kau ckp dkt kau, if ada problem cerita je dkt dia, but you know what? aku tak reti nak ckp apa. Dia mrah bukan sbb tak faham tp dorg risau if anything happen to their daughter.

I know you did love him so much, like i said before, if one day, you're meant to be together then you're meant to be together, nothing can stop you. I know you want a love with a happy ending like bella and edward right? haha. Nanti, you're might afraid to lose your mother more than everything. I hope this will make you feel better, i will always support and understand you, okay?



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